ASMA HAMID

We knew it was coming but it was Monday last week when they had announced that Selangor will be in full lockdown for two weeks - and I was gutted. I had planned for Jared's birthday staycation and Kee Zhen's birthday day out. Fortunately enough, I hadn't booked anything for both.  We had gone for a trip to PD the previous weekend. Mainly because we wanted to go to the beach and kayak. It was meant to be a complete family trip but Aisyah and Syameem had decided to stay home last minute because they became close contact.  I've seen a pattern when it comes to weekend trips and it's the fact that I would only start packing in the morning because of work. So, it gets a bit hectic especially because we tend to leave right after Subuh and would end up with everyone waiting for me. Because I had stayed up the night before to finish up a thermal model for work, I was extremely hungry throughout the journey. Luckily, the two hour drive didn't feel too long and I had a goo...

It's Saturday evening and I'm on the couch with Vagabond playing on the tv. I have spring rolls in the oven to be eaten with the sambal Aisyah made a batch of before she left. I'm deciding whether to steam some buns but I think I've over eaten during lunch. Aisyah's gone home and Laura's moved to her mum's. There were a lot of boxes around the house for a while; it was clear that people were moving out. There are actually still a lot of boxes in the house waiting to be shipped to Malaysia just that the shipping company hasn't texted to come yet. It had been a while since I had a roommate before Aisyah moved in. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be just that there were a lot of things in the room. We had to buy a bedside table and a clothing rack just to keep everything neat. While she was around, the house was sparkling clean because she vacuumed and polished the whole house nearly every day! In addition to that, the plants in the b...

Ramadhan wasn't as much as a challenge because I had my bad days and good days. The bad days were the worst and the good days felt like I wasn't even fasting. By the end of Ramadhan, I was just surprised with how fast it went by. Unlike previous years, this year, I decided to not force myself to do ibadah. Therefore, every sunnah I followed, I did it wholeheartedly. I felt like that's a good way to lead Ramadhan. I also had exams during Ramadhan which got a bit difficult sometimes especially because I had to have breakfast at 2AM and dinner at 9PM. My schedule got all messed up which meant that I had a really bad day during my first exam. The rest went okay, however, so I hope that all is well. Dad and Mum sent some kuih raya and as soon as exams were over, I started getting bored so I made kuih raya! This year, I made brownie cookies, pineapple tarts, cornflakes meringue and just yesterday, helped Hannah with her honey cornflakes.  A few days before Eid,...

I have so many half-done posts and I'm not exactly proud of it. I had the intention of continuing my Japan trip posts but when it comes to writing and expressing things, you need the mood to actually do it. I used to write when I'm sad (I have a private journal) just because it made me feel so much better but there was always a need for all those times that I had to write. So today, I'm writing because I feel empty?  I'm three weeks into my final year (OMG I know, it feels as if I got into uni just yesterday) and I'm so busy that I've never really had time for myself lately. Unfortunate but it's time to get serious. Throughout my 2 years here, I've always been a borderline first but because of what I went through emotionally last semester (I feel), my overall grades (along with my ability to socialize) dropped so I'm motivated to do really well this year.  What have I been up to this academic year? Work I am an enterprise intern...

I was never really close to my Pak Tok growing up, that may be because I only spent a little part of my childhood with him. But I've always looked up to him, I admired him from afar. I never told anyone but I used to get jealous when I see my cousins have conversations with him and mess about with him because it's something that I wasn't capable of doing. However, I did have random small chats with him sometimes but they were never really proper deep conversations... because of how uncomfortable I was at speaking in Malay. But I still remember them so that's nice. Bet you didn't know that I started wearing my scarf properly because of him. This one time, I drank too much and too fast, he said that my cup was leaking because my drink was gone too quick. He used to also playfully hit me for fun because I'm mengada and would overreact. Bet he wished that we were proper close too.  To make up for all the time that I didn't get to spend with my grandpar...

When my parents sent me to KMKN in July, they told me that the next time they'd be back is at the end of Semester 2. But then, yesterday, they were waiting for me downstairs at my block's parking lot to bring me home. Feeling touched and loved. And I'm thankful. May they send me to the UK next and visit me every half a year or even stay there with me. Mak also came along and we stayed at Darulaman, Jitra for a night.  Went to Kuala Perlis for dinner because there's nothing in Jitra.   Had a nice time there. It seems as if Papa knows that sometimes, the littlest thing after something stressful could make you feel so much better.  I'm nearly half way into my semester break. Can I just extend the break please. I've forgotten about the existence of my blog for a while but that's only because I had to study for my finals and once I got home, I had to catch up doing things that I wasn't able to do back in college. But those are all excuses. Plus I have a j...

Missed breakfast and a trip to the open gym but woke up to the sun which is something rare. 7 and all ready for school every morning. Waking up late, once in a while is such a pleasure but honestly, waking up early during the weekends is the best feeling ever. Up and awake early for a whole day of doing things that you want to do. Waking up late is taking its toll on me, I'm hungry. 

from Google Images Alhamdulillah   No, I didn't get straight As but I got an A for my BM so I'm happy enough.  From failing BM back in Year 6, now I got an A, look at how much I've improved and it happened mainly because of this one teacher who believed in me. A few tears and I was over it unlike last two years. I honestly think that what I got is the best for me and I have done the best to get that. I pray for a brighter future from Allah. But the main reason of my blog post for today is to thank the people that supported me and taught me throughout the years I was in school. My parents have been great, occasionally telling me that I wasn't working hard enough, pissing me off making me want to prove them wrong. I'm not sure if I've proved them wrong, though. I think I've asked them more than a million questions on subjects that they learnt years ago and they still managed to answer (google search and all) them. But I do know that they've supported me...

Recently, ages ago actually, my soul, my heart, my spirit and myself travelled somewhere far. To a holy place where my Aqidah and my Iman became stronger. A place where my stressful, busy and complicated life was forgotten and came to a pause. For two weeks, not even one thought about my actual life passed through my mind except when asking for forgiveness, asking for my du'a to be granted and asking for myself to become a better Muslim from Allah. MashaAllah, I cannot deny how beautiful Al-Masjid Al-Nabawi is. That was where we started off our trip. Our Mutawwif, Ustaz Meor lead us and showed us around Madinah and Makkah. He indeed did a very great job as he never once forgotten to give us a Tazkirah whether it's in the bus or at the hotel's restaurant and let's not forget... even early in the morning. So in Madinah, we basically just went to Al-Masjib Al-Nabawi every time we had to pray. Even though it was filled with people from different countries, cultures and...

Happy Birthday Mami.

Ernst Haeckel Understanding something you thought you'd never understand. Feels nice don't it? Thought that school today would be like yesterday - boring but it wasn't. I was glad that I went. I finally understood about the hormones that gets excreted and bla bla bla. And it made my day. I think it rained early this morning. I hope it'll rain again. Will be going to Jaja's tomorrow until Sunday because Mami, Papa and Muaz are ditching me for Hakim. Kidding, they'd never do that. They love me too much (stayed at home the most). It's Hakim's convocation so they're flying off to Langkawi to bring his stuff back for the holidays so that Hakim wouldn't need to bring so much when he comes back home later. Lucky PMR kid. 

Don't think about it anymore. It's in the past. I've grown up from that phase. It's not a problem to me anymore. So don't worry. My thoughts has matured and I now understand. 

What I am : A bad daughter and a bad sister Without realizing, I make my parents upset. A while later, when I've realised, I would regret what I did. Then that's that. I don't say sorry neither do I ask for forgiveness. I get mad at my parents for no valid reason, usually just because I'm not in the mood. I wish I had my own psychologist.

I miss everyone. I miss my sisters. I miss my homies. I miss my mates. So today, my cousins came. Papa: Tak boleh tunggu kita orang ajak ke? Not in a rude way. It's cos we do this buka puasa thing for the everyone from my mum's side of the family and pak ngah from my dad's side of the family (cos everyone else is in Johor except for pan ngah) every year. But yeah, they came. At 2 somin? we went to Tesco to get stuff. I bought a BB Cream, gonna try it out tomorrow. But even if it works. If I go to hong kong, which I hope i will, I'll buy Dr Jart's. So anyway.. on the way home, Iman called me while i was sleeping. So I obviously had to answer. :P and I did. Then I arrived home and it was raining. I wanted to play in the rain but I had no friends. After a few, I went to buy food. So I did. Came back home and helped me mum up in the kitchen. My aunts, uncles and cousins came. (2 families) Kak Iqa helped out so I didn't have to do ...

GEUDAE NAUI SARANG BIT That up there is Kim Kibum. I would marry him if he's a muslim and if he will stop wearing real thick make up. People tend to ignore his voice because of his dancing skills. Truth is, his voice is really nice. So yesterday, I went to Kuala Selangor cos there was a kenduri and so... I brought all my homework with me. I did it from 12 til' 4 and I didn't have to help in the kitchen even once. That is what you call life. Lulz. KI: Fuzah tengah buat apa tu? Me: Sejarah A: Sejjarrah Me: -.-' KI: Suka sejarah ke? Me: Haha, tak. ni homework. KI: Oh A: An pun tak suka sejjarrah. I thought I would for once meet my cousin(s) without them making fun of me cos he didn't talk me from when I came until KI asked me what I was doing. I thought wrong. But I've gone really quite now. I mean, when I balik kampung. Iunno why. Long time ago, I used to at least go around and mess about, I don't anymore. I think it's cos...

FOLLOW ME, FOLLOW ME. I mizz my sister and my brother. O0. I can't wait for the exams to finish.. even though it hasn't started. And since we're not going to Saudi Arabia. Can we please go somewhere overseas? Like like... Hong Kong! I wanna go to Sino centre and buy all the cheap stuff they have there... or or somewhere where it is winter. That'd be so fun. JEBAL? JEBAL? JEBAL? nemind. I can't wait for the project I'm doing to be finished so that I wouldn't have to worry about it anymore. I mean, all people know is that they have to sit in front of the camera and talk. What they don't know is that I have to watch video by video and take out unnecessary stuff and then I have to edit it. I also have to compile and combine them together. That's what they don't know. I mean, all they do is go in front of the camera and go ''OMG, malu lahhh, I'll do it later lah'' and they're like ''Nevermind, I'll do o...

DIBIDIBIDIS SHINEE MANEUNGYEOLSOE, KEY I went to Putrajaya for the hot air balloon thingymajigue. It was aaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeessssssssssssssssoooooooooooommmmmmmmmeeeeeeeeee. But I dropped papa's camera case. Tee hee. Ottoke. Papa: Where did you put it? Me: I took the camera out then I hung out. Papa: How did you hang it? There's no tali. Me: Oh. (starts laughing) He got the case online so they don't sell 'em in Malaysia. Heh. Heh. Heh. So yeah, nice life. I saw darth vader. 2PM should've came on one the hot air balloon. That'd be awesome. That'd be super duper awesome. I think my classmates are ignoring me. And even if they are, I don't really care, I have other friends. And I have my loves. And I have my family. And I have my other friends. (adds a gif of Kim kibum oppa dancing) KIM KIBUM ♥

AND IT GOT MY HEAD JUST SPINNIN' ROUND ROUND ROUND ROUND You think life is fun? Well you're right. Have fun, then die. English was er and History was just... WOW. I like TOP because he's so serious that it becomes adorable and Tae Yang reminds me too much of Jay Park. People think I'm nice. I'm not even nice. Juniors try to be close to me by acting all childish. I have a brother at home, he's 2. His childishness is cuter than yours. I'M NOT EVEN NICE, WHY DO YOU WANT TO BE MY FRIEND?! I feel guilty. Before, Muaz put pepper in my book and I got pissed so I stomped upstairs. He also sprinkled pepper on the carpet and on the table and I still stomped upstairs without caring. My dad cleaned it up. I feel guilty. On Sunday, my dad bought me a watch. A few days before, he bought me a new screen protector for my iPod because I didn't like the one that I already had. Yesterday, he spent hours on getting the screen protector on my iPod. I...

HIGH HIGH I'M SO HIGH HIGH HIGH UP IN THE SKY I got a new watch. I had to choose between an Adidas Cambridge, a Casio AW582SC and a black Casio G-306X. I ended up buying the black Casio G-306X and that's because my parents said that that was nicer and it wouldn't run out of 'style'. Plus, the guy at the shop said that I should buy that one aswell so I did, in the end. So yeah. New watch. ^^ THANK YOU PAPA! Momma got an iPad. Papa bought her it. I didn't get to study except for an hour in the morning. So yeah. EXAMS next week. Takut. I checked out a Condo in Bukit Antarabangsa, right next to my neighbourhood. The outside looked terrible. It looked worse than a flat. But when I went inside the lot it looked effing nice. So, ottoke. The swimming pool was nice, not really. the outside filter thingy weren't there nymore but other than that, it was pretty nice. I don't think I want it eventhough the inside was really nice. Like prope...

Az-az, I didn't know you were that fat. You were massive. Baby Az, you're not a baby anymore. I just felt like posting pictures of Muaz up cos yeah. nemind. bye.