ASMA HAMID

Remember how I had my ' now what? ' moment last June... I guess I'm now living my ' now this! ' moment. If anyone's missed it... I've moved to Edinburgh! It's mid-year now and so much has happened since and so much more will happen soon.  Am I overwhelmed?  Yes.  Have I had multiple mental breakdowns?  Yes.  Am I excited?  Sometimes.  Do I know what I'm doing? NO. I am soooooooo lost. Since last June, I've made countless spreadsheets just to see where my life could take me. As soon as I've convinced myself that I've got my life in hand... a voice inside of me just starts screaming saying that I don't - then I'll be right back in that rabbit hole. If I could, I'd like to just hand my life to someone to sort it out for me.  Now, you might be wondering why I'm so obsessed with having control of my life? I think you'd understand that if you've had structure in your life for the longest time, that's basically the on...

What a year of not documenting my life... I thought it might be good to start with 2023.  Summarising the Second Half of 2023 The end of an era finally came when Faten left for Malaysia. I felt like I lost a friend, but we still text nearly every day—just that she's not physically here. Jess came to visit in November, and we had a whole "Jess & Asma Days of Fun," filled with a lot of reminiscing and pure joy. One of my best nights was spent dancing and laughing with THG at Trev's. I played quite a bit of tennis, did a lot of walking, hung out with friends, worked on my career a bit, and became a permanent resident. I was in Malaysia throughout December and had an amazing time. I attended Hanz's wedding and that was chaotic; not the wedding itself but it was the whole situation with me trying to get to Malaysia. I ended up having to cancel my flight (which was booked well in advance) and got on a last-minute flight, which worked just well enough for me to get t...