Monday, September 17, 2018

Adapting

It's been 3 weeks since I moved and I've had pretty good days throughout the weeks... except for the occasional days when I couldn't bring myself to eat (which to me, is very ideal). However, last night, I had a dream and when I woke up, all I wanted to do was go home.  I allowed myself to let it out in the shower before stepping out, feeling a little bit more positive!

But for the first time ever since I moved or started work even, I was looking forward to Monday. On Sunday, I felt extremely down, especially because I knew that my former flatmate's leaving the day after. I stayed in bed most of the day, just waiting for Monday to come except for when I had to prepare for work. 

That was when I realised that it's not going to be easy. I'll have days when I would love it here but then days when all I want to do is fly back home. Days when I want to explore whatever is out there and days when all I want to do is stay in bed. Days when I look forward to tomorrow even though I should be enjoying today. 

On a more non depressing note. I think I am slowly trying to get used to going out alone. If you knew me, you'd know that I would never eat out alone. I even bring McDonalds back home because I could never feel comfortable eating alone. However, I went out to Reading on Saturday morning to run errands and wanted to eat korean so that's what I did. It wasn't great though but atleast I managed to do it. Reading is such a nice place, by the way!


After that, I had friends over for dinner and it's safe to say that I will never cook for people ever. I don't get it though. I make decent food for myself and my tastebuds but I would always end up ruining it for other people. We opened a bottle of fancy sparkling juice, had roast dinner and spent the rest of the night just catching up. It was sad to see people go afterwards and I got a bit excited when my sister said she might drop by but she didn't. However, I'm going to see her next weekend.

Idk where this post is going and I feel like my thoughts are all jumbled up so I'm going to stop here. 


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