Tuesday, April 23, 2019

Preparing to Stay after Uni

As some of you may know, I decided to move down south after I was done with uni instead of flying across the world where it's warm and lovely. I can say that I had it easy as I had parents who can afford to support me even though I did not prepare as much as I should have. Therefore, I thought I'd write about my journey of staying so that you can be better prepared if that's what you want to do. This post covers the period after university ended and immediately before I started work.


I was on a 'loan/sponsorship' while I was studying so I had money being transferred into my account until the end of my final year which meant that if you're in the same position as me, from the time term ends and until you get your first pay, you won't have any more money than you already had. Because of this, you need to have saved up enough money, beg your parents to sponsor you or work. I begged my parents.

You would need to remember that if you're planning on switching visas, you would need to maintain a certain amount in your bank account for 90 days. If not, your employer would need to certify that they can provide you it. Therefore, when calculating how much you'll need, include that, your monthly spending, your monthly rent, visa fees if your employer will need you to pay it first, moving costs and your house deposit if you're relocating.


Money aside, during the same period of time, I also got to see my friends, family and acquaintances travel abroad while I stayed because I didn't want to risk losing my Tier 4 visa. Obviously, you can risk it but it's always up to the people at the border that determines it. It really shouldn't be a problem. But with a graduate job waiting for me here and none in Malaysia, I decided to play it safe.


I also had to relocate 150+ miles away. This took a lot of reading and researching though I left most of it except for finding a house to the last minute. This is because I wanted to stay in Sheffield until I got tired of it and Hannah didn't want to move to my new house with me until the term on our previous flat ended.

Finding the right house wasn't too difficult for me but deciding on my budget and the kind of house I wanted to stay in was a bit difficult. Moving down south meant that the rent would be so much more than it was in Sheffield. I am currently paying double my rent in Sheffield though I don't have much to argue about because I currently love the house and rent in Maidenhead is generally like that.

I used SpareRoom to find my current house. I contacted multiple landlords but my current landlord is honestly the best landlord I've ever had. As soon as I contacted her, she allowed me to view the house through facetime where my former housemate brought me around the house. She then asked for Hannah's (my former housemate) opinion on me to make sure that Hannah would be ok with me which is extremely considerate of her.

If you're too far away to visit the house before moving in, I would recommend you rent the place for the minimum period (usually 3 months) and then decide whether you like it or not once you've moved in. I initially planned on staying at my current house for a very short term because the rent is above my budget but because I love everything about it, I couldn't bring myself to move out.

Moving wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. I reckon I spent about 1-2 weeks planning everything out. As I don't have a UK driving license, I wasn't able to hire a car for me to move. However, I found an amazing company called Shiply where I was able to find a small company to move my things for me... for only £60 which was probably cheaper than my train tickets!

This post is getting too long so I'll stop here, but if you do have questions, my email's up there. (Just casually ending my post like how Nurul did.)

Sunday, October 28, 2018

2 Months into Adult Life

It has been nearly 2 months since I started 'adulting'. I won't say that time flew by because in all honesty, I've just lost track of time. I'm unable to differentiate when last month was and when 2 months ago was. University seems to feel like it ended years ago but at the same time, I was shocked when Hannah told me that bonfire night's coming up because it felt like it was just a few months ago when my mates and I were discussing whether to go. I have a feeling that this is how it's going to be for the next few years, I just hope it won't be like this for the rest of my life.

However, there is always the weekends to look forward to though I have nothing against the weekdays. My weekends throughout the two months have been a mixture between doing so many things and doing nothing at all. There was a day when I stayed in bed the whole day just because I couldn't bring myself to do anything. It turned out that it wasn't a great idea because I was so tired when I got up, it was horrible.

Yesterday, even though I stayed at home the whole day, I made earl grey cupcakes which to me, tasted amazing. I used The Hummingbird's Bakery recipe which you can get here but I cut down the sugar to 200g though I feel like you can go with even less! I made sure to taste it before baking it because there was this one time, I made thai green tea cupcakes using the same recipe but ended up putting too little sugar. Though it tasted okay, it definitely could've been better. I've always felt like a lot of cake recipes you find online use extravagant amount of sugar and makes your dessert taste sickeningly too sweet. Despite that, I would always end up finishing off what I baked which probably reflects why I've gained so much weight.

Getting back onto the topic, with the weekdays, sometimes, all I want to do is stay in bed and sleep all day but everyone who I've told that to would go "That's unlike you." It's just so different from uni because a lot of the things I did then was because I wanted to and not because I had to. I can't just suddenly not turn up for work like how I wouldn't turn up for 9am lectures... it just doesn't work that way. I know I'm always comparing things with uni but your girl 'just' graduated, my inability to move on is bound to happen anyway.

Now, I'm having difficulties with ending this post naturally so I'll end it like this. I have my 'Things I Would've Regretted Not Doing' 1/4 way done so that's on the way. But until then, bye.

Tuesday, October 16, 2018

Things I Regret Not Doing in Uni

Even though I complain about my university life revolving around me trying to get a first class just to not get it in the end... I feel like I did so much in university that I should give myself a pat on the back. However, there are so many things that I regret not doing in uni and so, I'm going to list it out. 


I most probably spent 93% of my uni life just stressing out about getting a first class. I had so many breakdowns, so many sleepless nights, so much binge eating (im struggling to get back to my old weight now) and so much hate towards myself. If only I had known that it was impossible (for me), maybe I wouldn't have struggled so much. Look, if you're smart and you're meant to get a first class, you'd be able to get it without making yourself feel horrible. So don't force it upon yourself. But, don't fail your degree... because what's the point of spending so much money on uni if you're not going to get a certificate.


I'm pretty sure the international society held a lot of kpop parties during my years in Sheffield AND I WISH THAT I WENT TO ALL OF THEM. These days, I sit around in my room just dancing to kpop playing on my echo dot but it just doesn't feel the same. However, to be fair, there are a lot of kpop parties in London but I'm too scared of going alone! So if you are still in uni, and you love kpop, find some less halal friends and go have fun. Because you won't be able to do that in Malaysia (ok maybe you can) or when you're married or something. 


Bummit is a hitchhiking event where you fundraise and hitchhike to a destination with your mates or strangers and then go on a night out once you've arrived to celebrate. Unfortunately for me, I only knew about it in my final year of university. As much as I wanted to go, there were more important  things such as passing my modules. In addition to that, I told myself that I would only really make time for it (and do whatever it takes so that I can go) if I didn't get the internship that I applied for. However, I did so in conclusion, I didn't go.


iForge is a magical place where you get to turn dreams into reality. I had to go to the iForge a lot when I was doing my final year project. My favourite machine is hands down the laser cutter. I personally feel that the 3D Printer is a bit too overrated just because I've seen people print the simplest things that would have probably been easier to make without using one. But as I've said, I didn't go there enough. I've been wanting to make a casing for my bearbricks, but I didn't have enough time to make it. I could have also made so many prototypes of my ideas but I didn't. I now wish that I was back in uni just so that I could go to the iForge again.


I love programming, I love the outcome of programming. I feel like its an essential skill and should be taught as how they teach languages in school. But as much as I love programming, the only class I took was for Matlab. Once you're out of uni, programming classes are going to cost a fortune and you'd probably not have time for it. So if you're still in uni, go for it and create amazing things with it.


I was one of those people who would just enjoy the sun through the small window in my room. But that was only because I never liked doing things alone and no one else wanted to hang out in the sun. There were plenty of time when I did go out and enjoyed the sun but I just wish I did it more often. Because after starting work, I've realised that I no longer have the privilege of being able to go out to enjoy the sun whenever I'd like to because of my working hours. However, I did get to enjoy the sun a lot more in my final semester.

There are definitely a lot more things that I regret not doing in uni but my motto is 'no regrets' and these are just the few that I have yet to move on from. There are a lot of things that I would have regretted not doing in uni too so that's to come as a blog post once I find the mood to write again. 

Monday, September 17, 2018


It's been 3 weeks since I moved and I've had pretty good days throughout the weeks... except for the occasional days when I couldn't bring myself to eat (which to me, is very ideal). However, last night, I had a dream and when I woke up, all I wanted to do was go home.  I allowed myself to let it out in the shower before stepping out, feeling a little bit more positive!

But for the first time ever since I moved or started work even, I was looking forward to Monday. On Sunday, I felt extremely down, especially because I knew that my former flatmate's leaving the day after. I stayed in bed most of the day, just waiting for Monday to come except for when I had to prepare for work. 

That was when I realised that it's not going to be easy. I'll have days when I would love it here but then days when all I want to do is fly back home. Days when I want to explore whatever is out there and days when all I want to do is stay in bed. Days when I look forward to tomorrow even though I should be enjoying today. 

On a more non depressing note. I think I am slowly trying to get used to going out alone. If you knew me, you'd know that I would never eat out alone. I even bring McDonalds back home because I could never feel comfortable eating alone. However, I went out to Reading on Saturday morning to run errands and wanted to eat korean so that's what I did. It wasn't great though but atleast I managed to do it. Reading is such a nice place, by the way!

After that, I had friends over for dinner and it's safe to say that I will never cook for people ever. I don't get it though. I make decent food for myself and my tastebuds but I would always end up ruining it for other people. We opened a bottle of fancy sparkling juice, had roast dinner and spent the rest of the night just catching up. It was sad to see people go afterwards and I got a bit excited when my sister said she might drop by but she didn't. However, I'm going to see her next weekend.

Idk where this post is going and I feel like my thoughts are all jumbled up so I'm going to stop here. 

Wednesday, September 12, 2018

Starting Work

I'm in my second week of adulting (ie working). I now have a routine that includes waking up at 7.30am and going to bed at 10pm. In between, I obviously go to work for 8.5 hours (including lunch) and I'm still figuring out what to do with the remaining 4 hours that I have in the evening. I've asked my colleagues and most of them spend half of that on commuting which I don't have to worry about because my house is just 5 minutes walk from the office.

Last week, I would arrive home and feel like dying because I was just tired but I've realised that my body was just not used to it. Now that I'm in my second week, I'm not tired anymore, just bored to death. Yesterday, was a little bit better because my housemate, Hannah was around so I hung out with her while she was making dinner but she's on a business trip today and tomorrow.

Therefore, I decided to google the things that I could do. And guess what, I've found a massive list of things to do. One of them being writing a blog post, now here I am! Also included in the list were doing yoga, reading a book, watching a movie (which I've done so much of), going jogging, picking up new hobbies and many other things like that. I guess Google is amazing in the end.

Anyway, work has been interesting. I've been learning new concepts and have also been hating my uni for not teaching me the things that I actually need to know. But to be fair, I can only understand things easily now because of the things that I've learnt at uni. Therefore, it's not too bad. Plus, everyone at work seems to always be 'free' to teach me things even when they're extremely busy especially my 'replacement' line manager (who is also my mentor).

She let me borrow her textbooks (which I brought home to read) and read I did. She also walked me through concepts, she taught me things one by one, basically, I feel like I have my own personal teacher which is amazing. However, I would always feel as if I'm incompetent. I have heard that with working, there's a steep learning curve before it plateaus so as of now, I can't wait for the time that I can feel less incompetent!

That aside, I find myself valuing my lunch time a lot because it's the only time I get to meet the people downstairs! (I'm upstairs) And it's also the only time I get to 'socialise', I'm not going to complain though because we get an hour of lunch. My 'buddy' also comes up to me to see what I'm up to before he leaves for work so I've got that extra bit of human interaction. Very soon... tomorrow actually, we'll be revamping the 2nd floor to become a hang out spot. Can't wait to see what that's going to look like because then, when it's cold and ew outside at least we'll get to hang out and have lunch there.

Tuesday, September 4, 2018

Got a Job!

Above is an instastory post during the assessment day. 

Job hunting hadn't been easy but fortunately enough for me, I've landed a job in an industry that I wanted to be in. I was lucky enough to know what I wanted to do before I graduated which meant that it was easier for me when it came to job hunting.

To be fair to everyone, the opportunity did not come rolling to me. If you had been with me throughout my final year, you would've known how much time I've spent in searching for jobs, researching companies, looking through industries, studying for interviews, writing my personal statements (to fit each company) and updating my CV. All of this takes a lot of time and even though I did do all of that to procrastinate, it still took a lot of time.

My graduate job would be in the building industry doing building services engineering. Just reflecting back to the past, I decided to do engineering because I wanted to realise my ideas. I picked mechanical engineering because I thought that for sure, one day, I'm going to enter Proton and make it great.

However, throughout university, things changed for me. In my third and final year, I was very involved in learning about start ups. My friends and I went for a competition, we went on a 'tour' of the Malaysian start up ecosystem and I interned at the University of Sheffield Enterprise. This was not the route I decided to take on immediately after graduating, though. But it did open my eyes to realising that there's so much more out there that I could do rather than my initial 'dream' of making Proton great.

Sometime during my degree, I've realised that there was nothing within the engineering industry that got me excited. However, in my final year, I did a module about building physics. It was something that to me, wasn't 'mechanical engineering' but it was! I had so much fun during the module, I enjoyed every bit of it and I got extremely good grades for it.

Then, I've realised that I've found that one thing within the industry that got me excited. That was when I knew what I wanted to do. I was still very open to other engineering opportunities (I didn't reject any of the interviews I was offered). But to be honest with you, I was already looking into doing other things in the case that I don't get a job in the building industry (including banking - which was extremely attractive).

Because I knew what I wanted to do and which industry I wanted to go in, all of my researching efforts became very focused. While I was searching, there were very few job openings and I had just missed the application deadline for one of the biggest company that was hiring. I also looked into working in other countries such as Qatar and Hong Kong and since this girl ain't got no commitments, moving wouldn't be a problem.

However, fortunately enough one of the companies that I applied to invited me to their assessment day. I loved the atmosphere of the office when I visited, people were friendly, HR was efficient and the director was very welcoming. A few days later, I received a call and soon enough, here I am!

Yesterday was my first day and today, I joined a project meeting. I realised that I have so much to catch up on and hence, I am currently reading a guide on the 'Selection of Control Valves in Variable Flow Systems' while listening to Alif Satar.

Tuesday, June 26, 2018

Stand Up Paddle Boarding

After years of wanting to do some water activities, we finally did it! The reason why it took so long was because the water is ALWAYS cold during term time and people are never in Sheffield during the summer. This year, however, everyone has to stay because of graduation and with the temperature hitting 27°C, there really isn't a better time.

We headed out not so early in the morning, got some Subway and headed on the X5 from Sheffield Interchange to Almond Tree Road. Felt like we were overcharged as we were given the South Yorkshire day ticket when a Sheffield day ticket would have sufficed after asking for a return. (Just checked and you can actually get there on a tram (to Halfway) too - which would then be obviously cheaper than getting the South Yorkshire day ticket). Shows that you shouldn't trust google maps that much. 

However, that aside, we then walked for half an hour and a bit from the bus station to get to Rother Valley Country Park. Arriving there, we found a big lake with a few people paddling away. We dropped by at the water activities office and was told that we wouldn't need to book for our stand up paddle boards so we decided to sit about for a bit after the long walk to get there.

After chilling out, we headed back to the office and was told that there weren't anymore paddle boards left and there won't be any for the next 2 hours! We placed our names down, then ate and played 99 and werewolves while waiting. Also prayed out in the open because it seemed like we wouldn't be done by the time Asar comes. 

It was two hours later and we got into the changing room to store our stuff in the lockers before heading out to start paddle boarding. Mainly decided to go paddle boarding because I've personally gone kayaking way too many times. Best decision of the day because with stand up paddle boarding, we got to stand up, sit down, lay down and even have paddle board wars (which we had a lot of). 

I initially had thought that it would be difficult to balance on the paddle board, but, it really wasn't. I felt like I wouldn't have fallen into the water at all if someone hadn't done some 'kamikaze' (that's what he calls it) on me. Kamikaze is when someone jumps onto someone else's paddle board, causing the board to become unbalanced and therefore - toppling it over. Throughout the one hour we spent paddle boarding, there were series of hijacking, ganging up on people to make them topple over, photography sessions, chasing people around, screaming and way too much laughing. 

It was definitely a great day out with my Sheffield family and I'm sure I wouldn't have enjoyed it as much if I had gone with other people. Days like today will make me miss them once we've all gone our separate ways. The group was nearly complete and I just had so much fun. Makes me wish that today can happen everyday so I could just get tired of everybody and never want to see them again.